..:: For Ali ::..

"Redesign me, state of the art,

Erase my mind - replace my heart...

I want to start over."

~Alex Gaskarth

So, I got an e-mail from one of my followers

that really stuck out to me.

I've been neglecting this blog, and making promises I don't follow

through on, and I am so sorry.

I know, I've apologized a million times before for the same things.

All of you lovelies have been here for me through everything,

and I haven't returned the favor very well at all.

I've just sort of lost my motivation for everything.

I've been sickeningly depressed for a long time now,

and I don't know how to deal with it.

I just isolate myself, and drown in it.

But no more of that.

Ali, your e-mail was the kick in the butt that I needed.

I want to be the person I was when I first started this blog.

She wasn't perfect, but she was better than this,

and I know she's still somewhere in here.

I was out of school for three weeks with mono,

so I have a ton of make up work to do this week,

but next week is vacation.

I won't make any promises,

but I'm going post at least once next week.

Mono, by the way, sucks.

But it did make me lose my appetite.

I know I've said numerous times

"I'm back on track again,"

And I hate how unbelievable I've made myself sound by now,

so I'll be completely honest.

I'm not 100% back on track.

It's going to take me a while to get back to how I was.

But I'm trying.

Starting now, I'm actually going to try.

A fresh start is exactly what I need.

Thank you all so much for the loyalty I totally don't deserve.

So many of you are strugging,

and to have you all supporting me anyways is honestly amazing.

I'm so sorry for being selfish.

I'll do my best to improve and make it up to all of you,

and especially try to earn some of my believability back.