..:: Good Enough ::..

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly,
now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel good enough...
I feel good enough for you.
~Evanescence

This just happened to me literally

five minutes ago, but I'll

start at the beginning.

Okay so I cut an orange into

10 pieces last night.

I had 2 of the slices for breakfast today.

3 for lunch.

2 when I got home from hell school.

And was planning on having the

last 3 for dinner.

But suprise, suprise,

I got my period.

Lucky me.

For once,

I'm actually smart about it.

Now, I don't know if the cravings

I get are PMS or if its

all just in my head,

But I know they're coming.

So instead of having

the last of the orange,

I give myself a salt fix with

a 37.5 calorie bag of popcorn.

Well, a couple hours pass by

and I find myself in the kitchen.

I'm standing there and then

before I know it,

this is what I have sitting

in front of me:

Bowl of goldfish (160),

Two oreos (140),

Slice of cheese danish thingy (200),

Leftover halloween candy (230).

Total of this bowl of crap: 730.

I stood there, just staring at it.

And I swear to God

I was gonna do it.

I was going to shove all that shit

down my throat.

I walked out of the kitchen,

and paced around my living room

muttering to myself like a lunatic.

Not even joking.

So, then I walk back into the kitchen

and start putting back everything in the bowl.

One by one, I put them back in their boxes.

For a second, I considered having

just one oreo, but I ended up

putting those back too.

Instead, I pull out a jar of

pickels (0) from the fridge and

have 3 pickels.

I'm going to estimate the

orange to be about 80 cals.

Making the total for the day

117.5 calories.

All I can say is

FUCK YES.

Good luck, and Stay Strong.