This feeling never leaves you alone,
You pull the trigger on your own.
You're hiding in your safe place,
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly
all the way to the hospital.
You pull the trigger on your own.
You're hiding in your safe place,
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly
all the way to the hospital.
~The Used
Firstly, thank you for all the kind comments on my last post.
It really meant a lot to me.
This year started off well.
I was doing pretty good until a bunch of things came up.
I know, it's no excuse.
But some of it really threw me.
So I binged.
Why? How does stuffing myself help solve anything?
Exactly. It doesn't. It makes things a hell of a lot worse.
So since Tuesday morning I've started a fast-sort of thing.
Basically, I'm only going to eat when I literally have to.
Like, if my family has dinner at the table, I'll eat at least some of it.
Other than that, I don't need anything. I don't want anything.
I don't know how long it will last,
But I have a good feeling about it this time.
Eating feels abnormal to me these days.
hmm eating has felt weird for me too lately... its weird but good.
ReplyDeleteyou can always get past a binge. and you are only two x's from your last goal! congrats!!
<3
sorry that u binged but id rather not eat lately as well so ur not alone there
ReplyDeleteDamn stupid stuff coming up!! It always has to crop up and it fucks you over (excuse my bad languge)! I always think when things happen-maybe if I was thin then I would be better able to deal with this because I wouldn't feel like such a failure on top of everything else!!
ReplyDeleteYay for you on your fast though...that's a really good outlook to have- I pretty much started my new year-new me this Monday for real, and I'm surprised how well it has been going after the over-indulgence of Christmas! It makes me sick to think of what I ate and so now I am being super well-behaved, so fingers-crossed that continues!!
Hope your's goes well too- I'm thinking of starting a fast next week to maybe kick-start some more weight loss though!
Stay strong xxx
I've been snooping a few posts back, and I officially love your blog. Also, you're totally gorgeous! I am so envious of your beautiful legs...sigh.
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How have I never discovered your blog before?!
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be careful, love yourself darling.
ReplyDeletethats one of my favorite used songs. your a cool girl. :) and we do have the same stats!
ReplyDeletethats actually a pretty cool plan. every time i decide i try to do that, i find myself offering to eat with people. my brain tricks my body. im stupid.
we can do this. :)